Rafael Valdez

My dear son,

I miss you terribly and life hasn't been the same since I lost you. My 1st child that I so anxiously awaited for. I am very depressed and viewing your name here crushed me into a million pieces especially knowing your burial date. Not one day goes by where I don't shed a tear for you. I feel alone and lost in life. I don't find purpose in anything anymore and simple task have become so tideous... I have to see mother's constantly with their newborns while I walk around with a broken heart and memories of those beautiful 4 days you gave me. You were such a brave little boy and I know you fought as heard as you could to stay in this world but unfortunately your tiny body just couldnt resist as you were born to early. I am sad but didn't want you to continue suffering. I regret not giving you a proper burial but my thoughts were so scattered at the time I just didn't know what to do. I am sorry..... but please know that I loved and love you dearly! If I could give my life so that you could have lived I would have done so without a doubt. 

with love!

Your Mommy 

Alicia V.