Hector Cruz Gonzalez

Happy 39th Birthday My Beautiful Baby 😇 Angel Alex.🎂

Thirty nine years and it seems like yesterday, for a Mother's heart there are treasures that forever stayed buried within her heart that she takes to her grave: the Love for God and the Love for her children.

My Beautiful Angel I am blessed to arise and see this precious Sunday because I am a woman of deep faith. On September 14th,2022 unfortunately we lost our apartment of over two decades over a terrible fire. Your Brother Jeremiah was injured escaping the fire, on his right hand and I became trapped all alone in a dark hallway full of smoke as I was trying to save our pets. There was nothing but pure darkness and too much smoke within seconds, I could not see where I was going and I could barely scream for help as all the dark smoke made it very difficult to breathe! I prepared myself in prayer but asked the Lord to please spare your brother from death, just as I was in prayer , I heard a voice out of the darkness commanding me "take my hand" and In the darkness I saw a little light shining and a black hand coming from out of the rooftop! I gave him my hand, and he with all the power in him " flew me out of the fire and smoke like a light leaf".

I don't know how I got to a stretcher or who that fireman was nor his name, but he looked liked the Archangel Michael. May the Lord bless and protect him and all the Fireman's as I now know out of this personal experience how dangerous their job is.

My inhalation levels were a 12 and my blood pressure was high. I was very confused, scared,worried for Jeremiah and my pets. A young lady approached me,she found your brother in another ambulance,where later we joined each other to go to the emergency room. 

On that night night 15 families lost their homes, but by the grace of the Lord not their lives. My pets were rescued , some I had to give away, others are staying with other family. The fire was started on the second floor by someone using an Airfryer that overpowered the electrical grid, or at least that is parts of the facts.

We are temporarily in a shelter, I only wish it was in my borough and not so far making my commute so difficult every day from my son's school and my medical appointments. But above all I am very grateful to life and that someone up there in Heaven watches over us.

I thank God for allowing me to find comfort within my heart to forgive the person who started the fire because that person too was a victim and to my understanding severely burnt both hands and face, May the Lord heal his/her mind, body and soul so that they to can move forward with their life in Jesus name. Amen. 🙏

May Jeremiah also heal soon from mind, body and soul .

I love you my baby Angel😇👼❤

Love : Mommy, Jeremiah, hiram🌻🌻🌻🌻🌹🌻🌻🌻🌻🌹🌻🌻🌻

Blessings upon the world, and upon mother Earth

Saturday, September 10, 2022

We went to visit again for the second time your new found resting place my love. We invited Mrs. Hunt and we are all still wondering why I was visiting the wrong site for so long, but someday the answer will come. I was very glad Mrs.Hunt went with us, she is so kind and May the Lord always bless her for everything she does to help others in this journey to find their beloved ones. The weather was beautiful and the area you are in is so nice with trees and a nice view facing the sea. We brung you a blue rose and white flowers and baby breathes, tiny flowers( Mrs. Hunter told us the name) . My Darling Angel I feel so at peace when I visit your resting place, its sad when I leave. We also went back by the bath house to bring flowers to the others who rest in peace and I said a little prayer for them too. 

Little by little the Island is being cleared up more and its looking more nicer. Pretty soon the old buildings will be taken down for safety reasons, I will miss them very much, but i certainly would not like to hear or see anyone get hurt.

We got to see Captain Thompson, whom used to work with the Corrections Dept, and is now with HRA. 

My baby Angel this Covid19 has not yet totally left, but is less than before. Now we face other diseases like Polio and MonkeyPox, I still pray with all my heart for the Lord to protect all humanity from all diseases . May mother Nature be restored and we her children return to living in peace and the abundance of good health.In Jesus name. Amen.

I love you my baby boy. Love: Mommy, Hiram, Jeremiah 🙏🌷🌹🌻🌼❤💙😇

My Beautiful and precious Angel, we finally went to visit you yesterday Saturday August 6th,2022 under the new administration of City Parks. The weather was extremely hot, but we had a pleasant ride and made new friends among the other persons that were visiting their loved ones. The Island is being very well kept from my observation, and this little peace of Paradise looks more beautiful.❤

Its been awhile since we came over but I will be very sad if and when the old buildings have to be removed for safety purposes because they also make up part of the History of Hart Island.

My love my heart is full of so many emotions right this second. I always said" My Life is a mystery indeed" . All I can say I lost one Angel but gained many others in many ways. ❤🙏❤

I brung you some Flowers to your resting place, and would love to continue if granted permission of course, to bring flowers to those whom I also learned to love in their resting place. 

May the Lord bless those souls resting in peace in Hart Island, May they all rest in peace.

May The Lord Bless and protect the Living and Mother Earth and May this Covid End soon.

I love you my darling baby Angel. My eternal love. 

Love Mommy, Hiram, Jeremiah 🌻🌷🌹🌻🌼

Winter 2021 - March 14, 2021

My Beautiful & Loving Angel I'm so sorry, I have not been able to visit you and bring you flowers. This Covid Pandemic is still in the city and around the world and we pretty much all have to wait, until things ever go back to normal, if they ever do. As of this writing my heart is very heavy, for the lost is real and sad. Just lost Annie, your 2 brothers Grannie to Covid, may she rest in peace. Something we did not expect. We also lost Auntie Edelmira, your Great auntie, whom was such a sweet soul and one of our surviving elders. Losing our Elders , losing friends has made it very hard. We can only pray for this Pandemic to end soon and the mighty Lord to protect us and Mother Earth.😢🙏🌷🌎🌏🌍

I gave your sister Vero your information, for if she ever wants to visit you. At present time she is enduring many of Lifes issues and I pray that she can resolve those issues soon for her happiness and your nephew happiness. I try as best as I can to be there for all the children, give them love, support, guidance and keep the family together. I know I am not eternal and one day, I too will leave this world, so when the Lord calls me to go home, at least I will leave them with good things to carry with them in life. ❤

Its the best a mom can do.

I love you, my loving baby, I miss you dearly and I pray that soon once this Pandemic ends we can return to your resting place on Hart Island to bring you flowers. Until then, I blow you a Gentle kiss into the gentle breeze❤❤

Love: Mom, Jere & Hiram 🙏🌷🌻🌞🌷🌻

October2020  Happy Birthday/37 years Memorial Month

Hello my beautiful baby Angel, sorry that Mommy has not written in so long. 37 years of your Birthday and passing and it still hurts as if it happened yesterday. 😢 I said a little prayer for your soul to rest in peace. I prayed for the health of those sick, weak and in need of a blessing especially during these hard times we are all living in. 

Looks like this Pandemic/Coronavirus does not plan to leave anytime soon. Lord have Mercy upon humanity.🙏My heart aches for the world, so many families unable to be together as the Holiday approaches in fear of this Virus. I myself have not seen your grandpapa in over 11 months, now I have no idea when I can visit him because of all the restrictions in his living facilities for the elderly.  I hope soon, I can see him and I  give him a big hug. 

My beautiful baby Angel, New York City has become such a sad place, I try to think of happy days of the past to get me thru all this sadness and I pray a lot because without faith & hope, I would not be able to assist those who may need me. I love you dearly. I miss you.😢🙏🌹🌼🌻Happy Heavenly Birthday Month & sadly your passing away month too.

Love: forever Mom, Jere & Hiram❤❤❤

July 29, 2020

Hello  my beautiful Baby Angel 😇.

So sorry, I have not gone to visit your resting place, hopefully soon when they open up Hart Island again for visitors to go, I will run to visit you. This Covid19 has been like an awful nightmare. Up to this time and day there are still many people dying from this darn Pandemic. California, Florida, are  now in high numbers of so many cases. 

I pray & hope that soon a vaccine is made to protect humanity again st this Evil Monster  that has taken so many lives.😢😢

 Total deaths Globally to date: 16,819,944 in the U.S. 149,873

My precious love this new world we mortals are  now living is so strange, so weird. I sure miss last year😊. The things that I have seen and heard since this CoronaVirus  showed up would really  inspire Agatha Christie to write a great mysterybook.

Love you  baby with all my ❤Mom, Jeremiah  Hiram🌹🌷🌻🌼

5/14/2020

Hello my precious little Angel. Sorry, for the Delay. I've been pretty sick. This CoronaVirus Pandemic has been very hard. So many people have passed away. Friends, family, acquaintances. At one point, I too thought, I would lose the fight with it and end up in my eternal resting spot there in Hart Island with you. My faith and strength were tested, for over 30 days, but I never gave up, and Thank the Lord  I am here to still visit you and give others comfort.

New York City and New Yorkers will never be the same. Mentally, emotionally everyones lives have taken a fast an uexpected change. Mortals know have to wear mask, gloves, stay away 6ft from each other as a caution against this evil Virus. I'm very concern too because now to reopen the city it is by different phases, because the Virus is being monitored by local government. Also now there is a new mysterious child disease related to Covid19 affecting children from 2 yrs old up to 21 yrs old. 

I pray the Lord to continue to protect everyone, and our children throughout the world. Im also scare for your little brother and nephew, being the youngest in the family, and little cousin Destiny too. They all have underlying secondary conditions and we must stay alert with them. 😢

Baby I have no idea, when will be my next visit to Hart Island. Some of the people who passed away from this awful Pandemic will be buried on Hart Island by contractors hired for the job, not the DOC. May those who perished during this Pandemic rest in peace in the loving arms of the Lord.🙏May the Lord give their families and friends  strength and comfort during this sad period of mourning.

May our World and Mother Nature start healing soon, so that our tears of sadness and our fears disappear and this world become a much better and kind world, full of joy and happiness for all Humanity. ❤🙏❤

Yesterday was my Birthday, my wish is health for everyone in the planet. Love you my beautiful Angel. Since I cant visit you for now, I placed this flowers in your memory around our home. Love you forever my loving Angel. Love, Mommy, Hiram, Jeremiah❤❤❤

Me and your brother handpainted 2 canvas which we hung outside our fire escapes, in appreciation to those workers that have made a daily sacrafice to keep the city still going during these hard times.❤

                       Good Friday 2020 - 1 Year of finding you.

                                    (CORONAVIRUS 2019)

My Loving Baby Angel,who would of told me or the world a month after my last visit to you, that in this world of we the Mortals, that we were all going to have to make drastic changes to our everyday lives. That a simple hug, hand shake or being in close contact with another human being would be a cause of death for others, thru a virus. 

I am writing with so much pain, worry, fear,agony,disbelieve, concern,confusion. Worldwide so many lives have perished, over a Pandemic suspected of starting in Wuhan, China but spreading loke wildfire throughout the world. Worldwide confirmed cases : 1,677,256 Deaths: 101,732 maybe going up

New York Confirmed cases: 159,937  Deaths:7,067 

We are still in the peak of the Apex, so only the Lord knows how many more will pass away.  A Virus which does not discriminate but now data indicates that it is affecting more more the Latino and African-American communities. Low income and poverty stricken neighborhoods.  We now must stay home, or be 6 ft apart, wear mask, wear gloves, be quarentined,wash our hands,  many places are closed, classes are now done from home, lines in the supermarkets are long and  you need a lot of patience. The parks are empty, and everything seems so lonely. Like a bad Stephen king scary movie. 

December 14th, 2019   🌷🎄🎅🎄🌷

Dear Beautiful baby Angel, Im sorry I have not written since my last visit on December 14th. Been a bit sick and sad. December is a sad Month for me because of the nostalgia that comes with the Holidays. Anyway, on this December visit, there were more people going on the ferry to visit their love ones. The weather was nice,yet foggy.

We brung you red baby flowers for you and the other little angels. In my heart it was the First Christmas month to visit you right before the Holidays. Today, I asked the nice captain, about the missing marker that you, nor the other babies buried with you, dont have in your plot. I really dont know when that area will get at least a marker. But I pray that one day soon, when I visit Hart Island, you my little angels have one. Today my heart was very very sad, right next to your resting place, a Mom whom just found her baby and her baby nephew, knelt down in front of their plot and cried her heart out. Her pain became my pain, her tears became my tears. I was already on the bus, so as soon as we returned to the ferry, I approached the Mom, and with all my love, I hugged her and cried with her. No words can truly describe how the hearts of a mother feels when we find our lost love ones. I pray that her heart heals and she finds comfort and peace. 🙏😢

I also met a nice couple, whom went to visit "Mr. Felix" may he rest in eternal peace. He is right next to the Phoenix house. Im happy that on this visit, everyone got to visit their loved ones. ❤

As this year of 2019 is almost over. I am forever Thankful that on this Beautiful year, I found your resting place. 36 years later, but I never lost hope, and knew someday I would find you. Happy Heavenly Holidays to you my love & all the little Angels, and Adults who now rest in peace in Hart Island. 🌷🌷🌷💙💙❤❤

Love forever: Mom. Hiram, Jeremiah

Hector, today we visited Hart Island for the first time, and we met your mom, stepfather, and brother.  You are so loved.  We pray that you rest peacefully with the angels and that you watch over your mom.  

By the way , the White Teddy Bear & Flag we planted at your resting place, was not there today. 😢😢Guess because you are so near the ocean, it got washed away.

Happy Thanksgiving 2019

Hello my Angel😇

Today we went to Hart Island, me,Hiram & Jeremiah. It was very windy and cold. Met Evelyn, another mom whose baby passed in 1986, I am very happy that she found her baby boy resting place. 

I was afraid that maybe I could not make it, not feeling too well, but thank god we made it.Today we saw two most beautiful deers! One of them finding shelter from the cold inside an empty trench. It looked so cute. The other deer was running out in the field in the area where you rest, by the Bath house area. We saw the geeses laying down, and there was a butterfly inside the DOE bus that we rode in. Today we rode in the more newer Ferry, I got to see the surroundings, Captain Thompson told us about Rat Island and some history of how it got its name. He pointed out that a resident of City Island had purchased it in a bidding. We left you some beautiful baby blue and white flowers, and it was a little hard to find your area because without a marker, I can get it mixed up with the next burial area. The white baby Teddy bear and small American Flag we left you there last time, was no longer there. Guess the wind must of had blown it away.😢

Since this is so close to Thanksgiving Day, it officially makes it the first Thanksgiving Day, I have visited you. As always I spread your flowers around to share with the other little angels that rest in peace in the same trench as you do. 

Love you with all my heart❤; Mommy.🌻🌼🌻

November 5th, 2019

Hello my Angel  ❤❤❤

Sorry, that we could not go to your resting place, last time I wrote.

We were there at the Dock in City Island along with other families, including one that for over 40 years had not known of the passing of her dad and was there for the first time, from another state. The other family whom had just recently lost their dad, and other families. The weather was very, very scary. Something out of a scary movie. Lots of torrential rain, howling loud gusts of wind. High waves banging a piece of the platform, which needed to be attached to the DOC, Ferry. The Officers brung us into the Trailor, but the wind and rain were too dangerous. We all waited, but Mother Nature had her own show going on, after the Captains and staff monitoring the situation, everyone's safety was a priority and we had to Cancel for November. I send you my batch of baby white roses with the nice officer whom would later bring them to Hart Island, im very grateful for his kindness. I was sad because to me it meant so much to visit you for the first time in the actual Month of your birthday and Annivetsry of your passing away 36 years ago.😢😢😢😢 But God grant me long life, I will continue to visit you and all the little angels in your resting places.😇❤🌼🌼🌻🌼

Love: Mommy, Hiram and Jeremiah.

                                36th Anniversary October 22, 2019

My Beautiful and precious Angel. Today is a very sad day for me. My heart is in pain, I am sad and feel a mix of emotions. On a day like today, exactly 36 years ago at 11:30 P.M. I received the painful news from the hospital, that you had past away. How I wish that for once on your exact birthday month of October or exact death Anniversary in October, I could go to the plot you rest in at Hart Island, just to bring you flowers.😢😢😢😢As it is now, that thru the The Hart Island Project more days were added for visits to the Island. I requested a visit for the 19th and there was no space, I again requested a visit for 4 for this coming week, Sunday the 27th, and I pray I can visit you because, as of this writing I still am waiting for a response from The Department of Corrections. It would be a blessing to visit for the first time in 36 years your resting place on the same Month that you were born and passed away. 😢😢😢

This is the only thing I do not like about all the City of New York restrictions from the NYC Department of Corrections, that people like me are not freely allowed to visit our love ones on their Anniversaries or Birthdays, because we have to settle for the Calendar dates of the DOC. I know we have to follow their rules, but for heavens sake, I did not ever signed any documents for your body to end up there, to begin with. Then look how many decades it took for me to find you, thanks to the Hart Island Project that made it possible to find you, because if it was not for them, only God knows that waiting on the City who did as they pleased with your little body, I would of never found you. 

My Angel it is raining outside, to me its raining my tears for you, up to heaven because I miss you dearly, and love you with all my heart.

Just received a bouquet of beautiful white baby roses to place in the vase, in your loving Memory.

 My beautiful Angel rest in peace, in the presence of the Lord in paradise.🙏😢🙏❤😇

Love: Mommy, Jeremiah, Hiram.😢❤❤❤

August 16, 2019  Hi, baby boy! I'm so happy, that thanks to Mrs.Hunter I have the only photo of where you rest in peace, along with all the little Angels.

This picture, I will treasure it as long as I live, it is more valuable to me than gold. 

You know your Birthday and Anniversary is coming up. I requested a visit near your Anniversary date. I pray it comes thru, it will be the first time in almost 36 years come this October of 2019, that I will be able to be closer to your resting place to bring you flowers on such a sad day. You know all these years, mommy always wonders what your life would of been like, if you had stayed with me and your siblings, 😢💔🙏

Baby boy, I love you with all my heart.  Until next time, rest in peace my beautiful angel.❤

Love: Mommy

Hello my precious Angel😇💙

Went to visit you4 resting place on 8/3/2019. Brung a photo of your deceased dad, to see where you are resting at. Your older brother came as far as the gate inthe dock, but for his own personal reasons did not go visit you. 😢😢This sadden me very much. But your youngest brother has come with me. Today Mrs. Hunter came along. God bless her and give her, good and long health. Mrs.Hunter took us to your real resting place, which was not far from the first grave we visited the first time. Its okay, baby boy, they too are baby angels like you. Today, helped by your stepdad, we placed a flag, a white teddy Bear, and white baby roses at your grave, for you and all the babies buried in the same plot. 😇😇❤ Everytime I visit you, its like a piece of my heart ❤stays with you in Hart Island. Destiny is very strange. You are buried facing the beautiful sea, with the Sun right above your resting place, and near a Beautiful and huge white Cross made out of white stones from the kindness of inmates, god bless their hearts. So in my first and last name , I do believe the good Lord placed you in the correct place. Near the Mar=Sea y Sol=Sun+ Cruz=Cross. You know, my angel, Hart Island is for me a beautiful piece of heaven on earth. I pray at full heart, that when Mother Nature heads to or thru Hart Island, the winds and rain be  gentle and that no grave gets out of its place, for the souls to rest in peace.Baby I blow you kisses as I leave, for you and all the little babies . Until we return again to visit you all.❤❤💋💋🙏🌼🌻🌼🌹

Love forever: Mommy, your baby brother and stepdad.

Precious Angel

I went to visit your resting place and was heartbroken that you and the other little Angels did not have a marker on your resting places.

Soon, I will visit you again, maybe bring you some teddy bears.

Right now, im a mixed box of emotions. Im assuming that when Superstorm Sandy hit, it removed many markers away, but that was a few years ago!  I hope that by my next visit I find the good surprise to see a marker where you rest in peace, along with the other baby angels. I love you with this heart that has been destroyed by the actions of the agencies of this city, up to present time. If I did not know better, I would swear NYC agencies have a persecution against me, but non the less, with this broken heart, I will love you forever.😢❤💔🌹🌷🌹🌼🌻🌺 7/11/2019

My loving Angel❤This June 8th, 2019, Next Saturday will be the first time, I will go visit the Island where your remains are buried, along with the other little Angels. I pray god our Lord to grant me strength and prepare  me emotionally for this journey. My love, people say that as time passes on we suffer less the lost of our love ones. I dont agree because for me as the years proceeded, I miss you more.Last Month in May the day before Mothers Day, I went to the sea and in your memory and the other little Angels and Mothers buried on the Island, I send you a bouquet of white, pure and beautiful flowers.🌼🌼🌼with all my love. Love you always: Mommy❤😢

Today Monday, April 25th 2019, is the day after your brother's birthday. I reached out to him to let him know I found you. He is also happy to know where your remains are. He will soon go with his fiance, god willing, come this August to visit you too. 

I can't wait until this June to go to your grave and the grave of all the other little angels in your plot to bring you and the little angels flowers. ❤❤❤❤❤❤Love you : Mommy

Your name is: Hector Alexis Cruz Gonzalez

                                     "And the Angels Rejoice"

Where are you? For 36 years, I've searched for you everywhere. I've walked miles to get there. Where are you?I will never give up on my search..No matter how far it takes me.I will continue to search as long as God grants me life.Holding my head up high,I will not cease in this life 's long journey, no matter how far it takes me. Love of my life, my hopes and dreams. My heart belongs to you from here until Eternity. From here in this mortal world,until the end of time. Mommy will love you forever, my precious little Angel, my adoring and innocent cherub whom parted from me to go rest in heavenly paradise.

After I find you, my heart will be at peace. I will smile up to heaven for I know that on that day the Angels will rejoice with happiness along with me.

Found on: Good Friday 4/19/19 😢🙏❤🌼🌹